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I’m in tears

Describe the last time you were surprised by the intensity of a feeling you had about something, or were surprised at how strongly you reacted to something you thought wouldn’t be a big deal.

I’m in tears right now with no reason. Am I surprised? Not any more. I would like to have a hiding place to disappear. But I have none. I feel I’m worthless and I have to make efforts to block my mind and don’t think worst things I don’t want to write about them. Here I am inconsolable me exposed to the eyes of my worried loved ones. I hate it. It’s not fair worrying them. I try to explain but is useless. There’s not big deal. There’s no deal at all. A mystery. Nothing really happened. So why am I so sad and helpless? Why can’t I explain what’s going on with me?. Why do I feel so intensely this deep sadness? Why do I feel so helpless and worthless? Why am I crying?. Why can’t I think or speak or write with some sense? There’s no explanation. It’s the damned depression again playing with my feelings, squashing them, leaving me exhausted with no reason.

Daily Prompt: Intense!.

Author:

Journalist. In my fifties. I've worked for 26 years in a newspaper in Spain. I worked for two years as a stringer and correspondent in the US, and went as a special envoy to other places like the Balkans. Sea lover. Avid reader. Classic Music enthusiast.

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