I’m not on my best days. I seriously had considered titling this post, “Abolish me.” I feel useless. My projects have sunk during this pandemic. I wanted to write a book and had made a sort of outline. But when I tried to begin with my research to document my story, it came the quarantine, and my sources told me to wait. They wanted to meet me face to face, not on-line.
After all that had happened these months now, my original idea for the book seems kind of old fashioned. The world has changed. I’m not the same. Things that I have found exciting four months ago, now seem absolutely irrelevant.
I’m experiencing a deep and long writer’s block. I don’t like the old outline I made and I can’t figure out a single useful new plan to work on it. Therefore, I’m losing my time miserably waiting for an inspiration that doesn’t come. I feel so hopeless!
Every day, after I read the news and write my diary, I try to come with something. I look at the empty screen of my computer, search through old notes, but nothing. I’m clueless.
I can’t live without working I got deeply depressed. This is how I feel now. Completely down.
After everything that has happened recently, I would abolish liars. Above all the politicians who have misled us during this pandemic while people were dying
My dream is to abolish violence and poverty all around the world. Both are consequences of injustice. We are all human, no matter the color of our skin or the place we were born. We are all equal, all deserve justice and mercy and are entitled to our dignity.
I understand that it is challenging to achieve that in a globe full of wars and misery. But we need dreamers to change the world one step at a time. Sometimes it will be a big step, sometimes a little one, but what matters is to keep going and don’t stop trying.