New world

I’m not on my best days. I seriously had considered titling this post, “Abolish me.” I feel useless. My projects have sunk during this pandemic. I wanted to write a book and had made a sort of outline. But when I tried to begin with my research to document my story, it came the quarantine, and my sources told me to wait. They wanted to meet me face to face, not on-line.

After all that had happened these months now, my original idea for the book seems kind of old fashioned. The world has changed. I’m not the same. Things that I have found exciting four months ago, now seem absolutely irrelevant.

I’m experiencing a deep and long writer’s block. I don’t like the old outline I made and I can’t figure out a single useful new plan to work on it. Therefore, I’m losing my time miserably waiting for an inspiration that doesn’t come. I feel so hopeless!

Every day, after I read the news and write my diary, I try to come with something. I look at the empty screen of my computer, search through old notes, but nothing. I’m clueless.

I can’t live without working I got deeply depressed. This is how I feel now. Completely down.

After everything that has happened recently, I would abolish liars. Above all the politicians who have misled us during this pandemic while people were dying

My dream is to abolish violence and poverty all around the world. Both are consequences of injustice. We are all human, no matter the color of our skin or the place we were born. We are all equal, all deserve justice and mercy and are entitled to our dignity.

I understand that it is challenging to achieve that in a globe full of wars and misery. But we need dreamers to change the world one step at a time. Sometimes it will be a big step, sometimes a little one, but what matters is to keep going and don’t stop trying.

FOWC: abolish

5 thoughts on “New world

  1. Irene says:

    I hope you will be able to go back to your book and make it happen; you said it yourself ” … we need dreamers to change the world one step at a time. “

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    1. Olga Brajnović says:

      I also hope to find something to write about. I need to work. They say that inspiration finds you when you are working. I try to do so. Thank you for your good wishes, and your kind comment, Irene

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  2. blindzanygirl says:

    Like Irene I hope you can go back to your book. I myst admit, I have ended up with the same feelings as you during the pandemic and now, to be quite honest, a kind of odd depression has set in. Hope we all can get back to what we want to do.

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    1. Olga Brajnović says:

      I hope you’ll get better soon. This pandemic and the quarantine have caused that many people had suffered depression—those who already had it worsened. The isolation, the sense of desperate fighting something unknown, has been too hard. We have to look forward and have faith. Things will improve. We don’t know when, but we will see better days.

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      1. blindzanygirl says:

        Thankyou. You are so right. I am blind and in a wheelchair too, suffering constant pain. So the pandemic has really messed me up. But we WILL get more normal again.

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